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Gabe Saporta:
[ ] you can speak spanish
[ ]you own a purple/red American Apparel Hoodie.
[x] You can sing.
[x] You have a lot of shoes.
[x] You don't eat meat.
[ ] You were born in October.
[ ] Youre jewish
Total: 3

Ryland Blackinton:
[ ] You are abnormally tall.
[ ] You can play guitar.
[x] You DISLIKE sidekicks.
[x] You like aquariums.
[ ] Hannah Montana is your guilty pleasure.
[ ] Your name is in the title of a song.
[ ] You are from massachusetts
Total: 2

Alex Suarez:
[x] You like to cook.
[ ] You can play the bass.
[x] You dislike the rain.
[ ] You were born in April.
[x] You've been told you smell good.
[x] You love Reeses Peanut Butter Cups.
Total: 4

Vicky-T:
[x] You wear dresses often.
[ ] You were born in January.
[x] You are part British.
[ ] You can play the keytar.
[x] You have a cute dog
[x] You've dyed your hair many different colors.
Total: 4

Nate Novarro:
[] You're short.
[x] You like wearing flip flops.
[ ] You play drums.
[x] You've killed a goldfish (purposely or accidentally)
[x] You have a nose piercing.
[ ] you wear headbands often
total:3

I tag: well whoever wants to do it! xD

Ms Jones taught me english, but I think I just shot her son
Cause he owed me money, with a bullet in the chest you cannot run
Now hes bleeding in a vacant lot
The one in the summer where we used to smoke pot
I guess I didnt mean it
But man you shoulda seen it
His flesh explode
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so what if im insane? if I wear tutus and sing my heart out with my friends. maybe I'm just young at heart. maybe the fact that I wish not only 11:11 but any other time with the same didgets just means that I'm a believer. my friend, to believe is to have something faithful you can put your trust in. so what if I could talk to people using song lyrics only. because really, I'm a bitch I'm a lover I'm a child I'm a mother I'm a sinner I'm a saint. I'm a 15 year old child who is taking on adulthood way too soon. but I digress.
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And at home,
My sisters eating paint chips again, maybe that's why she's insane.
I shut the door to her moaning, and I shoot smack in my veins.
wouldn't you?
See my neighbor beating his wife, because he hates his life.
There's an arc to his fist as he sways.
Oh man,
what a beautiful thing.

I was tagged by Alex (spryjodensgirl)

The challenge: List 12 songs that cheer you up. =D

The rules: Tag 8 people, then they must tag 8 themselves.

(these are not in ANY order whatsoever........)
1) Taxi Driver-Gym Class Heroes

2) Wine Red (remix)-The Hush Sound

3)Heaven Help Us-My Chemical Romance

4)Landslide-Smashing Pumpkins

5)Valerie-Mark Ronson feat. Amy Whinehouse

6) Nine In The Afternoon-Panic At The Disco

7) Your So Last Summer-Taking Back Sunday

8)Jaded-Aerosmith

9) Taste Of Ink-The Used

10) Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year-Fall Out Boy

11) Someday/Last Night (what, I couldn't chose which one! they both make me happy ^_^)-The Strokes

12) Just Like Heaven-The Cure

well there you have it! those are the songs I like to listen to when I'm having a sucky day.
I randomly tag:
jaynedoe, a7xthetruunderdogs, babyxinxthexcorner, falloutboysavage, musicxaddict, emokittykat, williamxo, airwavesonsunday....so yeah :)

xxlexiexx

yes, I am gone in a few hours, but not forever. hahaha. I will be back in about one month because I'm leaving to have some r+r (xD) in paris. yeah I'm so exited! ahaha. but as soon as I come back, I will read everything I missed! so keep sending me comments on my pics (and journals) because they mean more than you even know! alright, well I guess I shall be going now...



au revoir! (^_ ~)

with love,
xxlexie

my favorite songs of the day...plain and simple! (in no particular order)

10) *I won't be home for Christmas by Blink182.*

my roomate and I never stop singing this...'tis the season right?

9) *Karma Police by Radiohead*

Radiohead is such an inspiring and influential band. I have grown to like more and more of their songs but just for today, I will title this one as my favorite. ^_^

8) *When It Rains by Paramore.*

This song is very sad and for some reason I always think that it has something to do with suicide... ),: it gets me everytime.

7)*You Can't Be Missed If You Never Go Away by Cobra Starship*

so true gabe, so true! Fangs up! xD


6) *One and Only by (the one and only haha) Fall Out Boy (and timbaland)*

I DARE you to sit still while listening to this song! its lyrics are contagious and this song is ahhhhmazing!

5) *Neighbors by The Academy is...*

Damn, if I had sisky as my neighbor I sure wouldn't be 'complaining every night'...no, see, my night would just include two things...1)binoculars and 2)my dirty mind...heh. SEXIE FOREVER!!! (lexie+sisky=sexie....hehe)

4) *Slow Motion by Third Eye Blind*

These lyrics hypnotize me and lure me into a wonderful mellow. a-ha

3) *Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance*

this is the most beautiful song Gerard has ever made...yes I cry to it everytime I hear it...what!? like you dont!

2) *Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For snacks by Panic! At The Disco (demo!)*

I think the demo showed so much more emotion in it....but I like the "st-st-studder" in the cd version better haha

1) *Yule Shoot Your Eye Out by Fall Out Boy*
yet another sad Christmas song...well I must say...Christmas has to be the worst time of year for me...its just so...jolly! haha I'm weird I know...but you love me! *does cheesy grin* haha no but really this is a phenominal song!

well that's it! have a merry fucking christmas everybody...and a happy new year. hehe love you all xxlexie

hey, okay getting right to the point of this, my computer has been broken for about a month now so I'm using my palm treo phone. everyone who sent me a note, I'm sorry but it won't let me respond. I read them though, and you guys are so kind! by the way, I can write comments though so I look forward to what you write!

so on another note, I just got home from orlando went amusment park hopping. fun, fun, fun! I'm still kind of sick from the tower of terror ride...ugh never again! ha...going to nyc tommorow to get a dress for the christmas party the next day...more fun!....after that, Its visiting my family and friends in p.a. for 2 days then heading BACK to florida for some more family visits....NOT fun! ha...so its hectic hectic hectic! okay now for some fun, what is your favorite holiday treat? xxoolexie

Pete Wentz
[] Play bass
[x] Love the movie Nightmare Before Christmas
[x] Writes journals
[x] Camera whore
[] Called emo sometimes
[] Have two middle names
[x] vegetarian
[] Have a dog
[x] Want to own a record label/clothing line
[] Have a birthday in June
Total:=5
Andy Hurley
[] Play drums
[x] Have tattoos
[]Vegan
[] Straight-edge
[] Mostly shirtless
[x] Have somewhat extreme views on politics
[] Loves Mountain Dew
[] Your mom's a nurse
[x] Smartest out of your friends
[] Have a birthday in May
Total: 3
Patrick Stump
[x] Sing
[x] Love music
[] Wears glasses
[x] Have a lot of hats
[] Doesn't like getting pictures taken
[x] Shy
[] Dislikes barbeque sauce
[] Have/want sideburns
[] Loves the movie Rushmore
[] Have a birthday in April
Total: 4
Joe Trohman
[] Play guitar
[] Jewish
[] Smokes
[x] Likes Cocoa Crispies
[] Loves the movie Star Wars
[] (I'm sure I could...)] Can do the Trohmania
[x] Youngest out of your friends
[] 5'9" or taller
[x] Hyper
[] Have a birthday in September
Total:3

A night out with that special someone on the hood of your neighbors beaten down '57 toyota just gazing at the stars......how perfect.
If only life was that simple.
If only life was just that feeling you get when you know that your living in the best years of your life.
If only you could freeze that one moment in time that just can't be replaced or renewed.
All of the scar stories that will be told one too many times,
Just to freeze the times when responsability is just another word used...but not from your mouth,
The wonder years where music is attached to you like cancer.
If so, this short life would be

almost wonderful after all.











Hello you might know me from the half assed fan fics that wrote or from my pictures. If not then let me introduce myself accordingly. My name is Alexia Conners and I enjoy rambling. If you can decode this than you will find that what is staring back at you would be my home address come visit me we can get a coffee.

                                                                Alyssa’s pov

Everything was spinning; the lights, my head, the contents in my stomach. My thoughts were flying everywhere and I began to feel sick. I grabbed my sides hoping not to throw my guts up. Mixed emotions were floating through the air. Every breath I took, I found something to be happy/complain about. All this mixed with a soundtrack of velvet vanilla crème and the sudden shrieks of excitement from Alex.

“Surprise!!!” Alex yelped throwing her hands in the air.

                                                             Alex’s pov

Lissa looked at me with large eyes and a mouth swung open to match.

“v…v…veg…v…veg…gas?!?!” she managed to spit out.

“Yes! Wait…are you mad?” she said nothing but just looked at the beautiful lights and scenery around her. She looked like a child in a candy store, but so did I… After about twenty minutes of driving around, we approached a big crème colored house. It had large circular windows all over. It also had five bedrooms in which we didn’t need. But hey, I’m not complaining! I looked up at Alyssa and could see the tears build up in her bright green eyes. Oh no.

“Welcome home?” I stated nervous as to what her response would be. She just kept her gaze on it the whole time.

“You hate it don’t you?” I asked disappointed.

“No…no I love it…its…magni…fantastical! I’m just trying to soak it all in now...” she said with a smirk.

                                                Alyssa’s pov

Alex just laughed as I parked the car and tried to wake up Natalie.

“I’ll get her you just take your sexy ass upstairs” Alex teased. Walking up the beautiful stone steps, I thought about how abnormally magnificent my friends are and how fortunate I am to have them. What would I do without them? I’d probably still be in New Jersey taking the same shit from Shaun. He’s really the reason I’m here; to start a new life.

“Damn I’m surprised how hot it is at this time of night!” Natalie stated halfway stumbling behind me. Uhh I’ve had enough surprises for one day. I fiddled with the house key that Alex gave me and finally, I got the glass door to open. I walked in with two of my suitcases in both of my hands and flipped the light switch on with my shoulder. There I stood in awe again until Alex laughed

“Your eyes are going to fall out of their sockets if you do that again!” I giggled and walked around, giving myself a tour of the downstairs.

“No furniture. No TV’s. No appliances. I can’t wait to help decorate when Adam gets here tomorrow!”  Nat said. A smile crept up on my face just from hearing his name. I hadn’t seen him ever since he played a show in New Jersey last year. But, we’ve been really close ever since high school.

“AHHHHHHH!” I yelped as a very loud ringer had corrupted my thinking, and may I add, scared the hell out of me! As mad as I was, I flung the phone open, but then sweetly smiled as I recognized his voice.

“Missy?” Adam asked.

“Oh hey Adam! I can’t wait to see you tomorrow make sure and wake me up as soon as you get here…even if I do bite and growl.” I laughed

“Uh yeah, that’s why I called: I don’t think I can make it by tomorrow or any time soon actually.” I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. My smile reversed before I knew it.

“…and why is that…?” I asked trying not to show any emotion in my voice. But, I couldn’t hide it.

“I’m too busy for you. Oh wait, that came out wrong. I’m just too busy to see you” the sadness and anger rose up in me.

“Bu…b…but…wha…” I stuttered trying to put a sentence together.

“Oh don’t get mad, I got you a flower…it’s like yellow or some shit. Yeah, but I fed-ex’d it to you. It should be there by now”

“Adam you’re an ass!” I help my composure enough to reply.

“I know, but what can you do?” that was the last thing he said before he hung up. I dropped the phone and started to cry on the ground. Behind my sobs, I heard the doorbell ring and the thought about the flower just made me cry even more. I waited for Alex or Natalie to come downstairs and answer the door but naturally, to make things worse, they didn’t. As forcefully as ever, I charged to the door. I cant believe he’d do this to me. I swung the door open and without warning, got tackled to the ground.

“I work for fed sex and I’m here to deliver something to you.” I heard a sarcastically sexy man’s voice say. I wiped my tears with my shoulder (yes it comes in handy when I can’t use my hands) and seen the infamous Adam Lazzara smile shining down upon me.

                                       Alyssa’s pov

“Lissa you mumble so much in your sleep. I felt like feeding you to a vicious man eating liger last night!” I faintly heard. I shot my head up to see Natalie and Alex laughing coffee-in-hand at me. I sat up and noticed that my blanket was where my pillow was suppose to be and my pillow was where my blanket was suppose to be.

“Dude I think you did.” Alex laughed at the sight. I just rubbed my eyes and sighed when I seen it was only 8 O’clock. I decided that instead of complaining, I would just call him. So, I grabbed my coffee and walked to the bathroom while punching the didgets into my phone.

Hello? I asked as I heard some movement in the background.

Oh my god Lissa I’m so happy you called. I can’t wait until you get down here!

Well someone’s a ray of freaking sunlight! I can’t wait until I get down there either. But one question?

Yes missylissy?

Haha, um, where is this place that I shall call my home?

That’s for me to know and for you to…soon find out. And anyways Missy, this is the first time that I get to say this; I know something you don’t know I know something you d-

And the last time I laughed at his singing

Haha grumpy well I’ve got to go. Fred wants to practice a new song

Man it’s what, 8 O’clock? You must be really nervous about all of this!

Well it is our first headlining tour and it starts next week so yeah…           he trailed off

Okay well I love you good luck with the singing and the mic swinging

Nice rhyming I love you tell Natalie to be careful driving and stuff.

Okay I will bye

Bye Missy

I hung up and heard the door close. Just then, my phone went off. I received a text message that read

Hurry up Lissa. We want to get there by tomorrow morning. Xxoo Natt

She has to be joking! Uhhhh. I ran BACK to the bathroom, put on god-only-knows-what, grabbed some flipped flops, my cell phone, my coffee, and ran to the car.

“Wow someone looks gorgeous this morning! Jump in.” Natalie teased at what I decided to wrap around my body this morning

“Thanks Natalie you’re really kind.” I replied with a grin.

“But you love me more! Anywho…crank up the tunes!!!” Alex said dancing from side to side while bobbing her head. “What cd’s do we have?” I asked not directly to anyone.

“Um, let’s see here. We have TBS, My Chem, and…All American Rejects?” Natalie suggested but soon after, we all agreed…

“Adam!” we said in unison. She put it in and we listened to half of the album so far, singing each song from beginning to finish. It was soothing to hear Adams voice. He’s so talented in everything he does. Damn, I miss that boy so much! I mean come on; he’s been there for me ever since the beginning of high school. He’s my best friend in the world but sometimes I think that we worry too much about eachother. I put my arm on the side of the door laying my head on it gently as I closed my eyes.

                                                  Natalie’s pov

“Anyone hungry?” I half-teased at the fact that it was now 11 O’clock pm and we only had one meal today. Silence. With no reply, I looked through the rear view mirror at the now sleeping Alex and Lissa.

“Uh just great…” I murmured to myself and took a deep breath in while looking at the stars in the corner of my eye. Just then, it popped into my head; the cd that the boy gave me was still in my purse. So, being the bored person I was, I dug through my bad until I seen a shiny cd with Panic! 1392 jwalkrox written on it. I plopped it in the player and turned on track number one. Wow these dudes aren’t that bad. I actually really like the feel of their music. Too bad there were only three songs on the cd. I replayed them over and over again until I found myself singing bits and pieces of it.

After an hour or so, I decided that I was too tired to keep driving but I didn’t want to stop off because the house was only about 35 miles away and I wanted to get there…I hate road trips. So, I pulled over and gently shook the girl’s arms until they woke up. After explaining myself, Alyssa agreed to drive saying that if Alex was put behind the wheel, within two minutes, our car and a tree would be having sex.  

                                                           Alyssa’s pov

“Dude, I don’t even know where were going remember?” I asked still a little bit grumpy that I had to wake up. But I have to admit, I did have one long ass nap!

“Owww!” I complained as I got hit in the head by a crumbled up piece of paper. Opening it up, I realized that it was directions to “home” as I should soon call it. I had to laugh at how messy Natalie’s handwriting was. I pressed the play button on the player and found that it wasn’t Adam’s voice or matt, Eddie, Fred, or marks instrumental talent I was listening to. Wow this dude has an overly deep sexy voice. Haha oh man, I bet if he was a male stripper, his name would be Velvet Vanilla Crème…damn it, my brain is still asleep. Maybe now I should concentrate on the road now that I realize my life is at stake. After about two hours of getting lost mistaking Nat’s b’s for d’s, m’s for n’s, and g’s for qs’, Alex woke up. She nervously assured me that we were about 10 minutes away so; I sat back and relaxed in my chair until I noticed an up-incoming sign that read “welcome to Las Vegas”.

                

                    Ryan’s pov

“Man when I get Brendon I’m gonna do this to him.” Jon said as he poked his eyes with his middle and index fingers. I just laughed through my nose, shook my head, and turned my direction to Spencer who now staring at the other end of the hallway as if there was a pair of gorillas getting it on.

“Dibs on the one to the left” Jon stated quietly enough for only our ears to hear.

“What?” I asked. Giving no reply, he just kept his concentration on whatever the hell he and Spencer were so interested in. getting annoyed, I decided to look so I shot my head up and followed their eyes to, of course, two young women about 19-21 running to the elevators. I admired their laughter and craziness. What made them beautiful as human beings? The sense that they were young at heart. Sort of care-free in a way. I sat there just thinking until

“WAIT!!!” I looked at where Spencer and Jon had been sitting but all that was left was a glass table and a cheap empty vase. Assuming they went to the elevators to stalk those two poor souls, I got up and casually ran (can you do that? Didn’t think so :]) as fast as I could. The doors were just about closing when I stumbled my way into them.

                                   Alex’s pov

“WAIT!!!” we heard some boys say. Without a second thought, I flung my hand to the ‘door open’ button but soon met lissa’s hand…under mine.

“Damnitt you and your fast reflexes” I angrily said as I cringed up my nose and gave her a pout.

“Why so sad?” a boy with dark brown hair asked me.

                                Alyssa’s pov

“My friends a dork” Alex replied acting very childish if I may say so myself!

“I’m assuming you’re the dork?” the same boy stated with a big smile on his face and his two hands in his jean pockets.

“I’m Jon Walker” he finished pulling his hand out for me to shake.

“Alyssa Bunchden! It’s very nice to meet you Mr. Walker.” I laughed as he flipped his hair with no hands and fluttered his eyelashes.

“Not to be nosy or anything, but what are you guys doing up so late?”

“Vending machine hunting!” Alex replied enthusiastically. “Oh yeah that’s the greatest form of hunting” Spencer stated we all laughed.

“Um guys not to break up our fun times or anything but the elevators not going anywhere.” Alex said.

                                    Spencer’s pov

Both girls jumped to the other side of the elevator but the girl Alyssa fell to the ground.

“Are you okay?” I asked as I outstretched my hand to pull her up. I looked up at the other girl and she was singing and dancing from the joy of…whatever was so good. “Hahahahahahahaaaaa loooooooser! Lalala looooser!” she laughed and just then, fell to the ground…on top of Alyssa.

“Oh my god I’m so sorry are you both alright?” I looked up and saw Ryan who was now blushing at the sight and helping the girls up.

“Smooth” Jon snickered into my ear.

“no it’s fine I’m okay, trust me, after three broken arms, two ankle, one broken tailbone, two broken wrists, and with that one time I broke my jaw, I don’t think anything can hurt me anymore!” Alyssa replied giggling and counting fingers. How the hell did she break her JAW!? I thought as the elevator began to rise.

                                    Alex’s pov

“Wow broken jaw, how did that happen?” Ryan asked Alyssa. I looked over at the boys and seen them laughing. Ryan gave them a glare.

“Sorry they’re just really immature” Ryan added. Yeah they were pretty immature but what guy isn’t?

“Um Aly and I pretty much decided to go shopping cart racing but it didn’t go as planned because within one hour, we were both in hospitals beds, right next to each other, laughing at how cool we were!”(True story) I answered for her. We all laughed.

“God, shopping cart racing, vending machine hunting; you chicks sound pretty damn adventurous” Jon said through his manly laughs. I couldn’t help but laugh with him. “Hell yeah we’re the cooliiiest!”

“Will the two of you be my best friends?” Spencer asked with a cute pout. Hey only I can do that! Haha he is pretty good at it though!

“I guess if you share your pb&j during lunch time and your blankey during nap time, I might consider.” Lissa teased. I nodded my head in agreement.

“Yay! Hugs?” he asked

“Hugs” we replied.

We all busted out laughing and then

*ding*

One by one we filed out saying our ‘goodbye’s and ‘nice to meet you’s.

“Alright I guess we’ll stop stalking you now” Ryan said basically pushing Jon and Spencer away.

                                      Alyssa’s pov

“WAIT! Best-y buddy!” I heard Spencer yell from across the room. Sheesh what was up with all the WAIT!s and falling and running today anyways?

“Here just in case my bff wants to have a slumber party or something.” Spencer laughed and handed me a half-ripped piece of paper.

“Yeah I don’t think that’s going to happen. Ya see, me and my friends are moving somewhere but they never told just where yet. So as far as I know, we could be all the way down in California or something.”

“Oh okay well just remember: turn that frown upside-down…oh and have fun! Bye best-y!” wow this dude is adorably random!

                                         Ryan’s pov

*ring ring ring* I walked away from Spencer and Jon to answer my phone.

Yup?

Yeah it’s Brendon…

Yuuuuuuuuuuup?

I’m sitting in the car get the guys and bring them out. I have out demo cds okay?

Yes

Okay bye!

Yeah

Haha they don’t call me a man of few words for nothing ya know.

“Bren’s in the car.” With that we all got to the car and headed on our way back

 

***Okay so I know it’s really long and I really don’t like it at all but its just a filler chapter it will get better I promise! J I’m going to finish the next chapter tonight and post it tomorrow! Another thing I added taking back Sunday instead of fall out boy I just thought it would be something different. Anyone who was suppose to be fob’s gf’s im sorry!!! Alex I hope your okay with this lol I strung you out on this fanfic and no this! im  so heartly Sorry for everything! I love you all so much!!!

everyone who reads my fanfic as eyes glare hearts collide, I am sooooo terribly sorry I had like 6 more chapters saved on my computer and it completley broke I was really happy at the direction my chapters were going and now I feel like crying and running away and crying some more. lol I'm writing this from my phone and I just wanted to say that I know I promised that i'd put up a new chapter because I was going to but everything with drama had to happen to me like 3 (yes I said 3) of my cousins/1 uncle were put in the hospital for very bad reasons. and we moved AGAIN to some place in the middle of no where. and a bunch more shit. yes it sounds like I'm making exuses but trust me when I say I'm not. I PROMISE to have the next chapters up as soon as possible even if I have to chop my own arm off on the way! lol please don't give up on my story...ill give you a puppy!...and some...SUSHI! yeah whi doesn't like sushi lol okay thank you everyone who's ever read my stories I love you all your all amazing! bye!!!

alyssa's pov
"here: one for you and one for me" alex said as she reached out her hand to give me my coffee.
"uh huh." i said blankly as i stared at my empty room. i sure am gonna miss this place. after everything that had happened and all the memories, both bad and good, weve shared in here and now were leaving. yes, leaving for good and never coming back. they never even told me where the hell were going! in gods nam-
"uhhh i think thats your cue to grab the damn thing!!!" alex teased while pulling me away from my thoughts.
"ohhh" i replied as i quote 'grabbed the damn thing'.
"god i cant believe were moving! i mean ill miss new jersey and all but holy shit! were like going to the other side of the U.S.! its gonna be so much fun!" alex hyperly stated hoping to make me feel better about leaving the place i grew up at. everything happened here, and i didnt want to get over it just yet.
"i know i cant wait until we GET OUR ASSES IN THE CAR!" we heard an angry voice coming from the door. we looked and there was natalie holding her double chocolate chip frappicino with extra whip cream from starbucks.
"okay okay fine were leaving." alex said

natalie's pov
i drove up to alyssa's old house and seen all of the moving vans ready to leave. i parked, got the key out of the ignition and closed the door. "ma'am we have everything in the vans just to let you know." a man walked up to me and said. "okay thank you." i replied and seen that he got into the van, that was now packed with me, alex, and lissa's things, and drove away to our new house. a sigh of relief released itself from my lips. (try saying THAT 3 times fast lol) i walked upstairs to the bedroom and stood at the door. of course there was alyssa and alex sitting and talking about the 'big move' as alex and i put it. i guess they never seen me so i tuned into their conversation.
"...new jersey and all but holy shit! were like going to the other side of the U.S.! its gonna be so much fun!" i heard alex say. haha i think its time for a wake up call!
"i know i cant wait until we GET OUR ASSES IN THE CAR!" i screamed while trying to hold my laugh in as i saw the reaction on their startled little faces. haha i love these girls!
"uhhh you scared the living bejeebus out of me natalie!" lissa said as she now started to laugh.
"come on seriously though guys weve gotta go!" i pointed to the direction of the door but i think they were a little bit more interested in another thing. oh hellllll no! they aint getting my frappicino!
"okay okay fine were leaving!" alex said as she walked by me slowly eyeing my drink the whole way.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" she screamed and i jumped. before i could open my mouth to her, she was gone and she kiddnapped my drink...that bitch!.
"YOU BITCHHHHH!!!" i yelled as i skidded downstairs to see her running out the door.
"damn! a cat fight!" alyssa said as she tried to dodge me but of course, i fell right on top of her!
"sorry liss!" i said and i extended my arm to help her up.
"thanks no prob" i brushed myself off and just then, i heard footsteps behind me. i turned around and faster that you can say bitch please, i had her in a headlock.
"le...t...go....of...me!" she said breathlessly.
"no! not until you kindly place my drink back in my hands. now im gonna ask you nicely, please can i have my drink back?" (haha) i replied holding her tighter as she tried to wiggle herself away.
"oka...y...ok...ay!" alex stated and then pointed towards an empty plastic cup that was now rolling around on the driveway.
"bitchhhh you owe me! now get your ass into the car!!!" i screamed and after about 10 minutes of me driving (pissed of course) and liss and alex just talking about nothing and everything (as usual), i started to picture what it would be like in our new city.

alyssa's pov

"im bored cheer me up guys!" i said obviously unaware that natalie was still pissed and that alex was now shrivled up like a ball by the door asleep.
"oh..." i replied boredly. wait i dont think thats a word is it? oh whatever. i continued to pull at my shoelaces. we've been driving for about 6 straight hours from one o'clock to what is now; 7:08.
"how much longer until were there?" i asked still staring at my converse bright orange laces. no reply.
"umm-" i started but then got stopped by natalie softly saying "about 2 more days."
"WHAT!" i said raising my eyebrows so that they sat on the top of my head.
"yes now wake up alex because we have to stay at a hotel." she said still in a soft tone. i guess she was trying to keep calm concidering all of the inhales and exhales that she was doing before. i obeyed the master and i moved my arm towards alex to wake her.
"alex...alex...ALEX!" i shouted as i shook her ferociously but she didnt even twitch. i moved closer to her while staring at her hoping that she would get the feeling that someone was watching her so she would awaken. i stared and stared and stared. nothing. then all of a sudden
*BLING*
her eyes shot wide open like nothing i have ever seen before.
"ahhhhhhhhhhh" i bitch-slapped her and jumped to the other side of the car, hitting my head on the way of course.
"what the hell was that for!?" alex yelled as she rubbed her red cheek.
"sorry its just that...a moskito landed on your face and i didnt wat it to suck your blood of course so i...natalie says that were gonna stay at a hotel." i said all at the same time.


no ones pov
all three girls walked their way up to the fourth floor, down the hallway, and up to room 408.

alex's pov

it's 3:02 and i cant sleep. mmmm I'm hungry! snackkkkkk machineeee timeee!
"hey alyssa, will you come with me to the snack machine?" i asked as i shook her.
"um num durrs jabiss" she mumbled
"what? come on now!" i yelled and i pulled her out of bed.
"okay okay, god!" we walked out of the room very silently trying not to wake natalie. then we ran down the hall almost tripping over eachother a couple of times.
"HAHAHA" we laughed as we skidded down stairs racing to see who got there first.
"umm...t-his...is...th-e...first...floor." i breathlessly stated pointing to the sign that said 'floor 1'
"ye-ah?" lissa asked
"the snack machines on the 3rd" i stated in a f.y.i. type of way.
"ooo well then lets take the elevator." she said and i followed her to it.
"i wanna push it!" lissa said.
"no me, me, me!" i said hyperly and i pushed the '3' button. alyssa gave me a death glare and then pushed levels 1,2,4,5, and 6! i gave her a death glare back and then the doors began to shut but just then, we heard some voices yell
"WAIT!!!"


hope ya like it!!! buzzes and comments are well appreciated!!!

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-lexie

(ps i might add mcr later in the story but ill put up a casting call for that if i do chose to add them in the story)

lexie's pov

after everything, we all walked to brendon's bedroom to tell him everything since he weirdly hasnt woke up yet. "b-baby?" i shakily asked but got no reply. damnit does ANYONE answer me anymore!? i walked over to our bed while pete and spencer were standing by the door to see that he wasnt there! "dude he's not fucking there is he?!!" pete screamed angrily. "pete he's probably using the bathroom, ill go get emily, alex, ryan, and jon too." i said walking upstairs. "yeah ill check all of the bathrooms but spence can you please go with her?" pete asked spencer. "sure c'mon lexx" and then we were off.

we walked to emily's room i think she was sleeping with ryan. 'KNOCK KNOCK' i knocked on his door (hehe lol). "what do you want its like 4:00 in the freakin morning!" ryan asked "um spencer will tell you. uh is emm in here?" i asked in reply. "yeah shes on the bed." "thanks" i said as i ran over to where ryan told me emily was. "SHES NOT HERE EITHER!!!" i yelled as tears flooded down my face. "shes probably in the bathroom?" spencer suggested as he finished telling ryan what had happened. he had a shocked look on his face but then all of a sudden pete ran in out of breath and said "ive checked every single bathroom in this house and neither emily OR brendon are in them." holyyyyy shit! i was officially a walking fountain. "dude, guys did you even check to see if jon and alex were in the room?" ryan asked but as soon as he said that, i ran downstairs followed by pete.

pete's pov

i seen lexie run downstairs so i followed her close behind. we ran into jon's bedroom to see alex's face laying on top of his stomach, both of them though, were asleep. "wake up dude" i said as i shook him side to side. damn hes a heavy sleeper. i looked over at alexia who had her jaw to the floor while she was staring at jon's bedroom window. i looked at what she was staring at to see 5 different men running past the window and going to the door. "omg he said he had some friends that were coming over to fucking kill me! peter i cant-nononononononononono!!!!!!!" alexia sacredly said while paising back and forth. "SHIT! JON WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i screamed as i slapped him hard across the face. "what the fuck pete its like 4:30 in the morning!" "alex c'mon lets go!!!"

alex's pov

i woke up to the sound of someone trying to break a door down, a lot of running, and jon, ryan, lexie, pete, and spencer's voice telling me to quote 'get the fuck up!'" "what the hell? its like 5:00!!!" i jumped up and before i could ask any other questions, i heard a loud gunshot. we all ran towards the back door but flames started growing around it. "they set the fuckin house on fire! we have to get upstairs now!!!" ryan yelled so we all ran up as fast as we could. i seen everyone at the top of the stairs but i fell and my leg sat in the fire. i screamed as loud as i could but no, the flames were to big i couldnt see anything and no one could hear me . suddenly, i felt hands on my back and someone pulling me...

spencer's pov

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOO PLEASE NOOOOOOO" what the hell was that!?! i ran downstairs as fast as my legs would go and what i seen terrified me.

lexie's pov

i woke up to some noise coming from the kitchen. shit its probabley emma or something. oh well ill just go see anyways cuz i have something to tell her. i was in my underwear and a sports bra but emily is like one of my best friends so whatever. "hello?" i asked but got no reply.
"emm are you there?...look, i have something to tell you...emma answer me damnit!" i yelled but still, no reply. hmmm mabey shes in the lounge room. i walked over to it and once again yelled
"emily where are y-oh there you are! i knew it was you who was down here!!! what are you wearing? oh yay your going somewhere can i come too!!!!????" i only seen the back of her and she was wearing a hoodie to cover her head wow shes a crazy bizzatche. i touched her but then soon realized that wasnt emily.
"no, im not going anywhere, well not just yet i want something of yours alexia." oh my god ohhh nooo! its jared what the hell is he doing here!? ahhhhhh!
"jared what the fuck are you doing here get out now or ill call the cops!" i shakily said as i pulled out my cell.
"ha! i dont really think thats necessary besides ive got some friends comeing to help me." he answered with a sly smirk on his face. he then threw my phone against the wall and it broke into peices.
"what do you want from me havent you already done enough in my life?" i asked and he no later said
"lexx lexx lexx, all i want is your virginity." i gave him a scared look and stared directly into his eyes. then it came back to me. that hot august night and everything that had happened.

flashback lexia's pov

"i love you lexie. what about me do you love me?" he asked his eyes piercing through mine.
"y-y-yes jared i lov-ve you" i replied while crying. SLAPPPPP
"fuck no you dont! you lying bitch! now say it without crying you slut!"
"i love you-u j-jared" i said trying to hold back the tears. SLAAAAAAAAPPPPPPP
"i LOve yoU!!!!!!!!!" "good girl. hey, can i come in?" he asked after hitting me hard in the face.
"NO! I'm a virgin jared please dont do this to me!"
"fuck you! now shut the fuck up and take off your skirt!" jared said as he put the knife to my throat. no! I'm only 16!!! if i want to live i will run! i kicked him in the balls and ran. far away i could here him yell
"dont think i wont come after you alexia because i will!!!" i ran all the way to my best friend's pete and alex's house. i told them what had happened and pete was VERY upset. gladly we never seen him again though.
end flashback

lexie's pov

"thats too bad because im not a virgin anymore! i gave my virginity to my boyfriend brendon!" i proudly proclaimed.
"WHERE THE FUCK IS HE!!?? HUH? IM GONNA FUCKIN KILL HIM!" jared replied as he walked up close to me.
"uh he left years ago i dont uh know where he uh is though." i lied because i didnt want brendon to die.
"good. well thats quite the outfit youve got on. im so glad this is all for me."
"what!? no it isnt get out jared get away from m-EEEEE" i was cut off by jared ripping my clothes off and raping me. "AHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOO PLEASE NOOOOOOO!!!!" i screamed hoping that someone would hear me
"shut the fuck up you bitch!" he said while laughing. i was now bawling tears and i couldn't stop. why isnt ANYONE wakeing up? why wont anyone help!? i looked down to see if he was using protection but my eyes were so clouded from tears, i couldnt see a thing.
"GET THE FUCK OFF OF HER!!!" i heard someone say. it sounded like ryan but once i finnally got a good look at him, it was spencer.
"SPENCER HELPPPP!" just then i heard a loud thump and then some fighting.

spencer's pov

i seen lexie on the ground crying while someone was raping her.
"GET THE FUCK OFF OF HER!!!" i screamed as i punched the guy in the back of the head and he fell to the floor i thought he was passed out but no later did he take out a knife. i tried to grab it off of him when i heard someone behind me.

jon's pov

"k well were gonna go to bed horneytoad." brendon said as he and lexie walked upstairs. "ok just dont do anything you'll regret!" i replied with a laugh. "haha dont worry jonny we'll use protection!!!" lexia laughed. everyone had already gone back to their place or to sleep so i was pretty much by myself watching Jurassic Park. hmmm i really want a jelly donut. mmm mabey with a capri sun...nah im more of a strawberry milk type. i walked to the fridge to see if we had any of the above. shit we've got popcorn and beer! oh well i guess ill just go to sleep then. i kinda skipped towards my bedroom and finally after having my wizard of oz moment, i noticed that there was something or mabey someone laying on my bed. i looked closer to see...alex? ALEX IS LAYING ON MY BED!!! a smile grew on my face like i just got kissed by the hottest girl in high school. she looked so beautiful just laying there breathing softly into the air. i noticed that she had her clothes and shoes on so I'm guessing she must have fallen asleep accidentally. mabey i should wake her up...no i cant tell her to leave that would be rude...but she'll ask why i DIDNT wake her up and ill have no other excuse...damn shes sexy...what?...ive got to stop arguing with my brain...but seriously what am i gonna do?!...jon???...yeah?...you said you were gonna stop...oh yeah sorry brain...jon???...yes WHAT do you want now!!!?...haha..."jon?"..."WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT!!!???"...stupid brain...wait that wasn't my brain!!! i looked behind me to see a scared alex staring at me.

alex's pov

"i was just gonna ask why you were in my bedroom geez." i replied to an angry jon. he had a sense of sorryness in his eyes. in his beautiful brown eyes. and for some reason i wasnt mad at him. i could never be mad at him unless he did something really bad to me. "oh my god im so sorry!" "its okay" "um this isnt your..." jon began but i finished by saying "oh haha im such a dork" "nah dont worry about it." jon replied laughing.

ryan's pov

i am soooooooooooooo tired but i cant go to sleep yet, i have to finish writing these lyrics or else it will drive me insane. almost done ill just finish the last part...'ps. please dont remind me to say goodbye youll be lucky if you get a wave' (i know it sucks but its from a poem i wrote hehe) yes! done! now if i could just"FUCK DO YOU WANT!!!???" shit who was that!? i walked downstairs to see jon and alex laughing. "um were you guys just screaming or something?" i asked. i guess i scared them because alex screamed and jumped into jons arms. "haha jonny boy im sure your happy right now so ill just leave you two alone" i smirked as i closed the door and walked back upstairs.

jon's pov
"so do you want to sleep here? i mean with me? um that came out bad what i meant to say was..." i started but was soon stopped by alex taking her shirt off and saying "sure got any pajamas for me?" she asked. "um yer here" i said throwing her a long shirt but still staring at her body. "dude youve got a hella good body!" i said. oh shit i covered my mouth so nothing else could pop out. "hahahaha thanks so do you freakin hottie" alex laughed and my face turned red. i hopped into bed and watched as she did the same. damn im lucky.

my best friend lauren is having a birthday next week and i dont have a CLUE what to get her. shes turning 16 so can you give me website to look on or something. she likes punk rock clothes, fall out boy, panic! at the disco, my chemical romance, skulls, and pink/black together pleaseeee help and give me a website that i can order her something off of or tell me something to get her. thanks a bunch!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Alex's pov
i kept crying and crying until all of a sudden, i felt two arms around me. i looked behind me to see Jon with a worried face.
"how did you find me?" i asked him.
"well this is where i always go whenever im sad and right now you look pretty damn sad." Jon replied
"im not sad im just pissed that they would do this to me."
"whos they?" jon asked.
"the bitches that made me this way. ive never had an eating disorder in my life and i dont need one when im only 20!" i replied with my chin resting on my knee.
"its ok we'll get through this i promise." wow hes so nice and i think i kinda like him. hmmm mabey but thats not whats important right now.
"jon, thank you so much" i said and i gave him a kiss on the cheek. he held me in his arms for about 10 minutes and then we decited to walk back home.
"do you still want to come?" jon asked. "um i dont know mabey not. no nevermind-im going!" i said.
"okay haha. dont worry its gonna be so much fun and ill make sure no one says anything to you" jon said and then we walked inside the house.
"hey alex, im so sorry! i never meant to hurt you or anything i guess im just over protective im soooo sorry!" pete said walking up to me.
"its okay" i replied simply.
"get everyone outside ill be waitingggggg" jon said so we all walked out side and pete started showing me a bunch of old places that i loved. we walked past all lot of stores and i noticed something behind Jon's back. whatever. i seen some girl staring at me so i stared at her back and then out all of a sudden, i heard jons voice but it was REALLY loud. i looked over at him and seen him holding a loudspeaker screaming
"TAKE A PICTURE BITCH!" the girl just ran away so we all busted our lungs laughing so hard. "what i told you that id make sure no one says anything to you" jon said still laughing. we all ran down the street and a bunch of people got pushed by us accidentally.
"watch it moron!" some chick said so i grabbed Jon's loudspeaker, put it in her face, and screamed "OOPS MY BADDDDDDDDDD" so she just stuck her nose in the air and walked away.
"hahahhaha so much for being innocent and nice hahahahahahaha!!!" spencer said. i just bowed and asked "guys do you love me!?" "yesssssss!!!!!" they all replied "great lets go then!!!"

lexie's pov
"huh? go where???" emily asked but alex never answered so we all followed her. she walked into a store but i dont know what it was. i looked at the sign and it said 'daredevilz tattoos'. (haha yeah cheesy but its like right next to my mall so w/e) oh HELLLLLL NO! im terrified of needles!!!! wait-so is she...hmmm.
"guys, i haven't had friends in 3 years so i think we need to mark this day and why mark it on a calendar when you can keep it on your body!" alex said with an accent as she winked at us.
"yay..." everyone said sarcastically with their hands in the air and then everyone started looking at what tattoos they wanted. "oh perfect!!! how about we all get the word forever written on our wrists." brendon said "uh it kinda sounds like were all getting married though..." emily said and alex gave her a death glare. "fine but i want it with hearts!" emily stated
"no" brendon replied
"yes" em said
"no"
"yes"
"no"
"y-" pete cut emily off
"stfu! how about we pick our designs? okay? then its settled!" everyone got their tattoos and they had everything from balloons to skulls. its my turn next ohhhh shit. i sat down while the guy cleaned my wrist. "ahhhhhhhhhh stop STOPPPPP!" i screamed
"baby, he never did anything yet..." brendon said.
"oh" i replied and then he put the needle on my skin. crap crap ow owww! after about 20 minutes, i was almost in tears.
"almost done" the guy whose name is rick said.
"t-t-thaAAA-nk-k youuUU-u" i replied shakily. thankfully about 3 minutes after that i had my first tattoo. wow its beautiful. it says 'forever' in black cursive and it is outlined with a heart that has an arrow going through it and pink skulls throughout the tattoo. we all payed and left.
"so do you want to go home?" jon asked alex
"hell no im eating!" everyone breathed a sigh of relief and we walked to some resturaunt. as soon as we walked towards the counter, some girl with big boobs come over to brendon.
"hey there, may i seat you...tonight?" she asked very seductively. what a slut brendons my boyfriend.
"uh yeah weve got nine i think." brendon replied.
"i see, so do you come here often?" the girl asked obviously not caring that i never ate a goddamn thing in 8 hours!!!
"uh nope..."
"well then, my name is...jessica" she motioned for him to look at her 'nametag' huh more like her implants.
"yeah thats great isnt it now can you show us our table?" brendon replied not even looking at it. ha yay thats MY smexy.
"yeah...their getting it so how old are yo-" i stopped 'jessica' mid sentance when i pulled brendon into a hot passionite kiss. she just pretended she didnt notice and spencer yelled
"oooooooo we need a fire extinguisher cuz you just got burrrrrrrrrnedddddddd" hes so cheesy lol
she just left so we decited to get mcdonalds and go back to brendons place.

alex's pov
tonight was soooo fun!!! jon was being so sweet and nice to me. i think i might have feelings for him. hes defenitly my type; hott, nice, caring, funny, and sexyyyyy. we walked into the house and everyone landed on the couch. i laughed but i was soooo tired that i went to some random bed just to lay there. i promised myself not to fall asleep but before i knew it, my eyes grew heavy and everything got dark.

lexie's pov
ryan told us that he and emily were together so we all congratulated him and then my phone started ringing. "guess who's sitting next to me right now?!!!?" a very exited peter said through the other end of the phone. "um...adam lazzara?!!" i replied "ha! you wish!!! well ill give you a hint-she's your slut." pete said. hmmm well its not adam lazzara, its a girl, and shes some sort of a slut that i own. no.freakin.way-"NO FUCKING WAY!!!!!!! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!!!!! ITS ALEX!!!! AHHHHHH LET ME TALK TO HER NOW!!!" i screamed which made everyone from the kitchen come to see what happened. "yes!!! i know right!!!!! here shes grabbing the phone out of my hand...god alex one second...your going to cause a car wreck!..fine fine here!" peter said and i was nearly in tears. "BITCHHHHH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU OH MY GOD WHERE ARE YOU?" she asked "im at brendon's place you better get your skinny ass over here!" "NO!" she said through the phone. wait a second-that wasnt through the phone! i looked up and seen a very skinny alex standing there. she leaped on me like i was her pray to kill. "um this is awkward..." said a voice that sounded like jon, but i didnt care "holy shit ew what is going on!?" said another voice that im guessing is ryan. ooo wow it looked like we were dry humping. "i am SO not a lesbian!" i said. "look lexie, you and emily had your moments and now some random girl comes into the house so you decide to-ok ew nevermind just know that were here for you no matter what." pete said as he walked in. he was surprisingly serious. "BWAHAHAHA just joking hahaha" pete replied. now THATS the pete i know and love. once everyone exchanged hellos and nice to meet yous,we all sat down. "wow alex, i just realized you have a nose ring! oh my god you look so sexy!!!" i said "well look at you little missy with your chick-pack!!!" she replied which made me blush. i looked over at jon who kept staring at alex. oh i know what that stare means awww. "hey where do you guys wanna go tonight?" emily asked tryna break up me and alex's reunion. "um i dont know mabey we can get something to eat-" "NO! i mean uh, mabey we can just uh...walk around chicago! since i havent been here in such a long time" alex cut ryan off. wow that was weird. "sure thats a great idea!" i replied and everyone agreed. i wonder why she didnt want to go to a restaurant she use to love them.

alex's pov
i was so happy to see everyone again well not everyone considering i never even seen joe, andy or patrick. PATRICK. i have to ask him what he was gonna say that day three years ago. oh well ill just have to wait even longer. "wow alex, i just realized you have a nose ring! oh my god you look so sexy!!!" lexie said to me. i pretended to like my nose ring and replied "well look at you little missy with your chick-pack!!!" the truth is that the company made me into a different person. and i hated it. they told me i was too fat the day i came there-and i was 17! i wasnt fat i was acually skinny considering i was 106 pounds. they told me to get a nose and lip ring because it would look better with the clothes i modeled and if i didnt then they would fire me so i went along with it. oh yeah and that sweet girl elizabeth that i talked to on the phone is a beeeeyotch in real life. "hey where do you guys wanna go tonight?" emily asked trying to break up our reunion. "um i dont know mabey we can get something to eat-" "NO! i mean uh, mabey we can just uh...walk around chicago! since i havent been here in such a long time" i cut ryan off. i didnt want them to find out. well not this early anyways. "sure thats a great idea!" lexie replied. thank god everyone agreed to going or else i would've had to make myself throw up after i ate. now im happy yay! i picked out a shirt but didnt have any skirts to match it. "hey do you have anything i can wear?" i had to ask..."yeah here." lexia said as she threw me a redskirt and an orange belt. i went to the bathroom to try it on. oh shit its really loose. oh yeah i have a belt yesssssss! i put the clothes on and went out to the lounge everyone just stared at me. "whachha staring at losers?" i said with my hand on my hip. "um lexie do you ea-oh nevermind" pete said but i couldnt really understand him. weird. "huh?" i asked very clueless. "nothing just forget it" he replied "no tell me!" i said giveing him puppy eyes. he can never resist those. he didnt say anything so i replied "were not leaving until you tell me" "fine alex-do you eat!?! why didnt you want to go to the resturaunt!? huh tell me that! do you know you can die from being that skinny you look anorexic!!!" i just looked at him, shook my head, and ran out of the house. i ran and ran and ran. i didnt know where i was going, but i didnt care just away from there. i sat down on a rock next to a lake or something and just cried. this is the most ive ever cried in my life, its like i kept it all inside for so long and now i let it all out. all of my anger, all of my sadness, all of my regrets just came out. i kept crying and crying until all of a sudden...